So called "FRIENDS"

ok so how about my life is really changing. and when there are significant changes in your life, you look to that one person, or those special persons to turn to to either vent, get that warm hug from, or just listen. but these days people like that are rare, and the term "friend" is used so loosely it might as well be an unhealthy additive in your favorite cereal.
there are a couple people that i have been so-called "friends" with, and instead of us growing together, either we have grown apart, or i'm ready to beat a bitch down!! i mean stop me if im wrong, or you really dont agree with my point of view. maybe i am looking at it from the wron perspective, or my glasses are covered with jaded fingerprints.
so what is a true "friend"? well my bitch would be ride or die!!( lemme hear my dogs bark!!!) i can tell her a secret, and no matter if we argue, or fight, she's taking my secret to her grave. a friend is a person that when u are down that broad is getting stilts to prop you back up on! a friend is that chick that when she gets that signal we goin to war...no questions asked. but these days the 24 karat gold plated chicks that have claimed to be my friends end up buried after the war.
i had this chick that called herself my "friend", (nd i was gonna be respectful and leave her nameless but repsect went out the door when backstabbing came over!) Kristie Mason. this gutter rat was a bartender at a local bar that i was a loyal patron at. she was a younger chick workin at a bar that catered to older customers. we used to talk everyday, and compare bar stories. so when the opprotunity cam about for me to offer her a better position at a bar that i was managing, i immediately offered it to her. well little did i know that this chick that was supoosed to be my "friend", was plotting with the one of the other partners to push me out, and for her to take my place. the when i comfronted that rusty whore about it, she looked me in my face and said, "i didnt do anything to you, and it is what it is". and all ni had to say was wow...(but that was after i went down to the bar and called her outside so that i could bet her ass!! but she didn't come out!!! lol) but this box built cock sucker was what i called a friend, because when she need help with her housing sitaution, she called me and i helped her out. but what goes around comes around, and nothing comes to backstabbers.
but what hurt my heart the most is a chick that called herself my "friend", just pulled herself away from me. i am a bi-sexual woman, and now that i am loving myself and is embracing my sexuality, i guess she feels like we can no longer be friends, because what i've done isnt making me happy, and it's not right. but i did say that she was in a feminine relationship for four years right? o...yes i did!! she's with the guy she left for a broad, but since she is in a "normal" relationship, then she has room now to pass judgement on others? yea fuckin rite! the way i see it is if she was so happy regardless of what i was doing, she would be my friend, and happy for me regardless.
so people, i guess i am saying all this to say...it might not ne the people that i call my "friends" with the problem, it must be the me and the way i pick my "friends" that could be tje problem.
it time to RE-EVALUATE me!!!